A darker day..

Until a recent point, life was progressing in order in align with my personal expectations. Contented with the moment, I tried making the best for myself and for the ones I know. Unexpected by the complexity that was bound to occur, I was moving on in life effortlessly. However, that was about to change. 25th May 09; the mark of a period of sorrow. It was 8.53 in the night when a sudden beep on my phone interupts my tv programme. Uncertain and peculiar on whom it may be, I rushed towards my phone. At that instant, my soul slides away just with the sight of the sender. It was my ex.

It all started on the first month of this year. Infact it was just after the Christmas and New Year celebrations when it begin. During then, we will exchange texts through our phone for hours. Myself being the more playful one, while she, the humble and sweet one. I was captivated by the moment. I was in what would most call "love". Soon enough, she initiated the starting move with the request to be together or remain friends. At that moment, I couldn't refuse the more favorable offer. So I made the choice that seemed right. However, she was inclined towards speaking Mandarin while English was my mother tongue. Nevertheless, it was all good. That was the only flaw. Everything else was perfect.

Soon, she applied for a full-time job at a pyramid-shaped mall. It was a convience for her as she was living across the road. I was reassured by her that everything will remain the same. Things did. All the outings we shared was at the same venue which was at her working place. It was only a few weeks later where she got busy. Unsatisfied, I seek advice from associates. Perhaps doing so caused my judgement to sway from reality. One thing was in mind; a breakup. Pending my abrupt decision, I placed effort to construct a better relationship than the current. However, condition remained the same. Being pressured, I made the bold move; somewhere in March. It was only fair for me to end what she had started. Trying to ease the current condition, I suggest being back to just friends. Unfortunately, she was not in mind with me.

She was saddened over the inevitable situation. So was I. The first two weeks after that was a huge downfall in life. Without fail, a text with only the phrase "I miss u" was left by her through the phone messaging system. Feeling even more distraughted by that, I avoided her in any way possible. The occurance of the same text reappearing became less and less. Nonetheless, from time to time, it still occurs. When it does, I would ask about her welfare and the reason to her texts which will then be followed by short arguments. Replies were always the same; bad state and more of the same phrase. She left her job and started college soon. It was then I stopped hearing from her. Gradually, I proceed with life and regained my light back. Everything was going accordingly until her recent text haunts me again. I replied and told her about my first blog. However, as usual, a few replies and then argument follows. I know she would be reading this. And when you do, I hope you can leave me alone as promised. Perhaps an alternate crosshair will be the best for me, where then, I will only be a shot away from that particular one ;). With that, I end my worries along with my post.

*Done by request*

Cute Carrot Chris~
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